…not all people, but a lot of people. People just end up so disappointing. Normally I would try to be more discreet about these things but I don’t give a fuck anymore. I am so pissed. What I really mean is that I hate Joshua Francis Agbayani…what a fucking asshole. Every time I’m so close to just forgetting what happened something new presents itself. I just need to realize that I should never just resort back to anywhere near him….I need to stop caring cuz I just end up so fucking hurt and disappointed. Within the year that I got closer to him nothing has changed. He is still the little boy who needs to grow some fucking balls and own up to what happens instead of blaming others and wanting everyone else to do things…

ugh edit the rest later

okay well my anger has died down slightly because Trixi told me I can only be emo for 24 hours so it’s time to be all chipper again…which is okay I guess since all is well again in the world of Mia and Bryan, I kno that’s all corny and shit but at least it makes it so I don’t have to focus on two brothers…just the one lame ass one who has no balls. Which brings me back to the hating people…because they are so disappointing. I mean c’mon like I’m the shittiest person to pick best friends…I always put so much faith and hope into them because I do consider them my best friends…and no matter what I would remain loyal to them, defend them with every last breath…even if I was angry at them. They were like family to me…no one gets to speak ill of them…no one. I would hope that I could be the kind of person who would have friends that felt the same way…with some kind of loyalty…sadly I was mistaken…and my views of people totally skewed. I used to think I could read people well…emotion wise i can, but who that person really is…i was wrong.

Let’s start with Briana and end with the only person that I can truly call the biggest disappointment of my life.  My best friend since fifth grade…when I decided to got the flintridge she supported my decision and was happy for me for getting in. Even when i parted ways with the gang she was my link…thank God I had her because I kept my sanity in that hoity toity school. She was like my sister. We were really close. Moving away I was the saddest at leaving her and that family…they were and still are like part of my family. It’s just this year with everything she told me and all that i’ve heard…I just don’t know her anymore…I’ll finish up yet again later cuz I don’t feel like typing and me and Bry are adopting a puppy…on nintendog…lol so cute